I have been on a spiritual path for 30 years. I had an intense spiritual experience and invited Jesus Christ to be my savoir. I have experienced alot of growth but still hunger for a more steady life in the spirit. My heart has been broken by childhood misunderstandings (never welcomed to just be) and two physically and emotionally abusive marriages, drug and alcohol addiction I must say I am growing but it still seems like too much effort. At times my heart still feels broken.
One of the greatest blessings in the life of a sincere devotee is a constant sense of longing in the heart for fulfillment. This can cause us much suffering, because we keep looking for this longing to be fulfilled by our experiences in the world. But ultimately it keeps us seeking the one source of true happiness and love — God.
St. Augustine put in beautifully, "Lord, Thou hast made us for Thyself alone, and our hearts are restless until they find their rest in Thee."
It is a great relief, and in fact turning point in our soul’s evolution, when we realize that everything we’ve been seeking will be found in God.
In Autobiography of a Yogi, Yogananda says, "The devotee is finally freed from all instinctive compulsions. He transforms his need for human affection into aspiration for God alone, a love solitary because omnipresent."
If you can realize that all of your life’s experiences have been to help you accept this truth, you will find much joy and freedom.
In divine friendship,