On the spiritual path, there is an interesting balance to be struck. For if one renounces the world in his search for God, it is easy to get into a mindset that emphasizes noninvolvement in outward activity. And if one is too involved in outward activity, how can one make inward spiritual progress? When am I truly content (a supreme virtue, mind you!), and when am I being complacent, not really eager to think bigger and rise up to is being asked of me? The answer seems not so simple. Here’s my journey of the past 6 weeks:
If you read my past blog on the Spiritual Benefits of Juice Fasting, you’ll know that right after Christmas we began juicing. I did 11 days, and my wife did 21, and now we are juicing in the mornings, having salads for lunch, and yummy raw food entrees for dinner.
What a difference it has made – not just the weight loss for my wife, but the energy and mental clarity it has given me. We are now waking up a full 2 hours earlier than we did last year, and meditating together deeply before Caitlin wakes up. Right there is my reason for rejoicing!
Our consciousness has also been changing dramatically – one example is that we are more able to avoid watching too many videos, and can easily turn off videos that are lower in consciousness than what we’d like, rather than suffering through with the thought that “it might get better.”
Along with the mental clarity has come new levels of inspiration as well. I’ve been working on future classes such as The Sacred Art of Listening, Superconscious Performance, and The Spiritual Path of Music, which has nudged me into thinking about all that can be shared concerning listening, music, and consciousness – online courses, blogs, ebooks, videos, everything!
What is so funny to me is that just 2 months ago, I was content with what I was doing. Now I feel that God is calling me to do a broader work. In the past I’ve had the inspiration to do these things, but have thought “Yes, that would be nice, but…sigh…I’ve got too much on my plate at the moment to even consider it.” Now it seems like if I don’t start following the inspiration, I won’t be honoring my dharma.
My concern is that I might get caught up in the doings of everything, and loose track of what I really want to accomplish in this life — to find God. Will these next changes take me more into ego-involvement? At what point is it better to say “No, I’d better not, because that path is fraught with peril,” and just continue to live in what could feel like a narrower scope of life that doesn’t ask as much of me outwardly? I think I’d better say yes to this one, all the while keeping God at the center. I’m being asked to raise my energy once again.
In the department of nutrition (by the way, my wife Madhavi (Michele) will be starting her training as a Certified Nutritional Coach in March!), I have been of course very enthusiastic, and it has been difficult to watch my friends and family continue to suffer from low energy and health and weight issues. However, along with that enthusiasm came the climb onto the high horse of self-righteousness. I found myself thinking “My way’s best! Everybody should juice!” It was making me more and more rigid and uncomfortable.
So I told my wife “Honey, I need to go figure out my life – I may be a while.” I sat down on the back deck to journal, to reset my attitudes, when the words “Live in harmony” came to me. I could tangibly feel that harmony in my heart, and that is above all what I wish to express.
It was that simple! Madhavi looked shocked when I came back in 5-minutes later. With that reconciliation, I woke up this morning filled with even more enthusiasm to share Yogananda’s teachings through my direct experiences of music and consciousness. I truly hope that I can serve God through this expanded calling, and not get caught in the net of delusion. Wish me luck!