During the recent Dedication Weekend, May 15–17, we were meditating in Swami Kriyananda’s newly completed Moksha Mandir, the final resting place for his body. His living reality was so tangible to everyone that it was hard to imagine he was no longer physically present with us. The difference now, perhaps, was that his consciousness felt even more powerful, accessible, and vast than before.
Two days later on the eve of his birthday, May 19, I had a vivid and meaningful dream. A small group of us were with Swamiji having tea in the comfortably decorated sitting room of a hotel. It seemed totally natural that we were together and enjoying the blessings of being with him.
Then another person joined us: Lila, who was Swamiji’s devoted housekeeper and cook for twenty-five years, and who passed away nine months before him. Swamiji and all of us were surprised to see her, and marveled at the fact that she was with us, even though she was no longer alive.
When I awoke I realized that there was a difference in how I had experienced Swamiji and Lila in the dream. She seemed separated from us by a veil of energy, while he was vibrantly present, though neither of them still dwelt in physical form.
As I tried to understand why such a difference existed, I began to realize that this dream presented an important spiritual distinction for me to contemplate. Swamiji’s consciousness, free from any vestige of ego, resided in timelessness. There is no past, present, or future in that state of awareness; nor life nor death, as we think of them.
Paramhansa Yogananda said, “When this ‘I’ shall die, then shall I know who am I.” This freedom from all limitations of time and space is the goal that lies before all sincere spiritual seekers. The body will certainly die; the personality changes over time; with divine grace and inner effort, the ego can in time be transcended; but the soul remains unchanged eternally.
When we realize this, so much of the fear and anxiety over change, loss, and death leaves us, for we know who and what we really are. When faced with major changes in your life, or with the approach of death, whether your own or of a loved one, meditate on these words of Yoganandaji: “The reality of my life cannot die, for I am indestructible consciousness.”
May we all discover our true Self in God.
In divine friendship,