If you feel the calling to be a monk. But you don`t think you can live in a monastery and live as monks live. Should you ignore the call or follow the call to be a monk ?
There are two parts to a monastic lifestyle: the outward and the inward. The outward part of living with other monks in at least partial seclusion is a huge help to most people in the sense that Master says “Environment is stronger than will power.”
If this kind of lifestyle is not available, and you still feel the call to be a monk, ask God to provide the support you need. Anything is possible with His grace. The monks here have discussed the idea of creating a “virtual monastery” online. If this approach appeals to you, you should contact Brahmachari Nabha at firstname.lastname@example.org.