Please pardon me for any grammatical errors in my writings as English is not my first language. I am doing Kriya Yoga and meditation as Mahavatar Babaji showed us, directed by Gobind Marshall, the disciple of Babaji. Lately, I have been having anxiety that something will happen. I get a heart ache and cannot sleep although last night I prayed to the great Babaji and it helped. How do I overcome my fears and talk to Babaji? I know I can feel him in my heart but he does not respond or show me any sign.
Krishna in the Bhagavad Gita states that, “Even a little practice of this inward (kriya) religion will save you from dire fears and colossal sufferings.” Furthermore, Krishna says to Arjuna that he will not fight in the battle but will guide his chariot.
God, guru, and the Divine Self of the soul remain untouched by maya, including our personal karma. They stand ready to lend inspiration and help, to be sure but we too must do our best. We each have karma to work out. Most likely this anxiety comes from your past karma but also constitutes a spiritual test of strength, will power and faith in God, guru, and kriya.
Your test is to affirm the faith to remain calm and even-minded, even cheerful in the face of this anxiety. I’m not saying that it is a “failure” to FEEL anxiety. Rather, the test is to affirm calmness, acceptance, and faith even in the midst of anxiety! Evidently, anxiety must come as your karmic test but your exercise of will power to use your sadhana, your reason, faith and your will to make the effort to remain calm is the opportunity you have been given.
This too will pass. Use your reason to consider this anxiety: “Do I have anything to feel anxious about?” “NO!” “What is the worst thing that can happen to me?” “DIE!” “Well, then, I know I will die sooner or later, so what difference does that make? I have died a million deaths over countless incarnations, so what’s another death? God and the masters teach that there is no death for the soul is eternal and made in the bliss-image of God. I cannot die!”
One cannot reason away anxiety and fear, I know! Nonetheless, fighting it is still worthwhile. But so is acceptance! (irony of life). Accept in your heart this anxiety and say, “Divine Mother, I don’t know why I am anxious but I know your love is ever mine and I seek to ever deepen my love for you. I don’t ask that you take this anxiety away. I only ask that I feel your presence and your love so that I may feel your love with all.”
Yes, “this too will pass.” Take heart and celebrate the presence of God as your true Self. “So long as you remain in God, nothing and no one can harm you.” Use this as a daily affirmation of the truth that shall “make you free.”
Joy to you!
Seattle WA USA